How do you know?

Soooo... how do you know what to do... how do you know how to make the right decision about something that could possibly change your life? Is it the right thing? Is it the wrong thing? Is it the right thing for right now??? How in the heck are you SUPPOSED TO KNOW??

I have no idea sometimes. I really don't. I have a tendancy to want to follow my gut... But my head gets in the way... WHY? Why is it that these days we have to absolutely analyze, paralyze and patronize ourselves because we don't have the guts to just follow our hearts?? WHY? Why can't we just go where our hearts take us? Why can't we live life with an incomparable degree of reckless abandon that allows us to say we are who we are, we do what makes us whole?

I want to take on those things that scare me! I want to take on those things that I KNOW will make me whole.. those things that will make my soul and my mind connect... those who know me know what those things are. For some reason, I have let life, work, bills, adulthood and EVERYTHING else you can possibly think of be used as a sorry excuse for why I don't do that thing that makes me feel right... that makes me feel like I was doing what I was created to do...

Maybe someday... maybe someday I'll be able to throw caution to the wind and be who I am... do what I do.. and maybe that day... maybe THAT day... I will know...